my condolences..

hey..

havent blogged in a while.. been quite busy at work and stuff.. anyway, just found out that my friend's grandma just passed away a few days ago. my condolences.

i've never been able to handle death well. i guess i just can't take the fact that a particular person can just not be part of your life forever.. and there's nothing you can do about it.

throughout my life, i can remember a few deaths that have close ties with me. As i was growing up, i remembered my grandma's funeral.. this was probably the earliest encounter with that part of living that i can remember. i was really young, so it didnt really hit me.

i had a school friend who passed away just after high school.. he sat next to me in class that final year. the last time i saw him, he was doing a drift move with his car. a few months later, i got a phone call early in the morning saying that he was involved in an accident...

most recently, was the passing of my aunt. This hit me quite bad... As i was growing up, she was one of the few relatives who was really concern about education. she had a daughter my age, and she would make sure that both of us get the proper education that we need. i remembered going to the same tuition as my cousin, my aunt calling my mum asking how my results were after exams (provided they were never really good).. and making sure that we choose the right path in life. About a year and a half ago, she fell ill. even the doctors couldnt figure out what happened to her. she was just lying helpless on the hospital bed.. i actually shed a tear when i went to visit her once.

it was extremely sad seeing someone you know, looking very helpless just lying there unable to do much... well, a few months later she passed away..

i guess when you think about death it makes you look at things differently in life, how short it could be and how immediate it can just go away.

anyway, hope you're doing okay J.. take care!

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